Monday : Beginning

 So, this weekend was very busy. I went back to work and all went well. I had a panic attact on the way to the Swap Meet on both days. I almost came back...almost.  Most of the people were new there. Those that I recognized were very nice and very surprise, mostly because not all of them had noticed that I was pregnant, even though its only been four months since I've been to the Swap Meet. I tried not to make the fact that I was pregnant noticible because I didn't want mi mama  to figure it out. When  I was expecting Daniel she'd tell me such awful things that I didn't want to go through that. I was sure she'd tell me that I was stupid to not realize all the work I was getting myself into since Dani can't see and Daniel is just 2. But she didn't realize that Dani is helping me out more and more around the house. And Daniel well, he wore underwere today for about 5 hours and went to and in the potty once. Then we went to the park to play and run some errends.
On Sunday, we went to the toy train museum. It was great! They were innagurrating a real caboose. Daniel loved it he is obssesed with trains and cars. Dani loved imagining everything that I tried to describe. Trust me, I didn't even describe half of what was there! The whole time I was there I was...like... in a daze. On the drive to a class that Dani had to give I remembered... I remembered the Xmas mi mama bought the toy train. First, she was very determined to buy it because her mom was determined I get a dress up set or something else frilly. She said I'd turn out lesbian if I kept playing with toys for boys...Talk about ignorance...Mi mama said that that wouldn't happen, but when we went back for the train she didn't want to buy it because it was to expensive... I still don't remember what I went without that winter in order to get the train set. I didn't tell that to Dani... He dosen't like it when I tell him what I'm starting to remember...Maybe it was shoes or a jacket...I don't remember...I just know that I went without for no reason. My mom was always paid more that $8 an hour and went on $100 shopping sprees at the thrift stores...the proof in actually IN and AROUND her house!... I opened the box and looked at all the trains and then kept it safe under a huge piece of furniture in the dinning room. I used to set it up on Xmas for about an hour or two...I knew the scolding that was comming if I broke or lost a piece. Finnally, two of the cars broke...the back tires twisted in...I don't know how...I put the set away immediatly and havn't taken it back out. I saw it about 3 years ago, the box still perfect... the train not.