Tomorrow is Another Day

So I went to my appt today and was sorely diappointed by the psychologist. His attitude toward me, the words he chose and well, the treatment he gave me were very unprofessional. Plus, he didn't tell me anything I didn't first tell him and therefore already knew! So I will continue shopping around for a professional psychologist or better yet, psychiatrist.
I know that if I had gone to see him when I finally felt ready to tell my story to someone that was not Dani I would have kept my mouth shut and continued feeling guilty, as if this was all somehow my fault. Trust me, been there done that, time to move on. And this man is just an obstacle in my path. So I will not be returning.
I wish that the woman I did see back in Feb, the one that told me that it was alright, that I could get better and had already made a considerable amount of progress was closer to where I live. A 2 hr drive just doesn't fit into my schedule. I really connected to her and hope to someday be able to tell her that. She is a wonderful psychologist. And a pleasure to work with. I will forever remember her and hold her as part of the reason why I started to tell my story, the more you get it out of your system, the less it hurts.
So, because of this appt I was away from Iva for 4 hours! She didn't even fuss! I swear God gave me the most beautiful angels He could find as babies.
Daniel has figured out how to dial the phone and his first call was to 411. He asked for a listing in Salt Lake City and got mad at the operator when she couldn't find "Daddy Minda" there. Since this was during my appt, my DH let him keep playing with the phone and eventually my son dialed 911, he said hello to the operator told her he was with his dad and sister and hoped she was ok.
The operator told Dani that he made her day. Which reminded me how often we forget about the people who keep this country safe from within. We are constantly reminded about the soldier, but what about the cops and EMTs and operators and fire fighters and social workers and road workers and power company employees and everyone else that keeps us going? Who says "thanks for a job well done. Thanks for keeping my family safe." to them?
Hey, to all the public service workers THANK YOU!! And everyone else that doesn't fit that category, THANK YOU TOO!!
Well, I am done... for today.