Be Creative

One way that I was able to overcome this trauma was to be creative. Mi mama always told me that I would never accomplish something, that I wasn't good at anything. She always told me not to waste my time or her money on my attempts at creativity.
When I was 8 years old, my dad came back from Peru. He brought back with him some steel crochet hooks. He sat me down one day and taught me how to chain and to do a double crochet stitch. I loved it. I would sit and make strips of acrylic yarn. Siempre me decia a mi misma I'll eventually sew them together and make myself a blanket. But what she told me, esas palabras, stuck with me and so I didn't. I never sewed them together. Ni se donde estan.
It took Dani three years, but I've finished a few crochet projects. Primero, he had to convince me that I could do more than just strips. Despues, he had to convince me to spend the money on myself (she would by me the cheapest yarn at the store and if it was a thrift store even better because she wouldn't waste that much money. Now Dani buys me whatever I want or need, as long as the texture is nice for the finished project. He cares about mi projecto mas que su billetera). Y then that I could be creative. Finalmente, that I could finish a project.
That's how I first made a purse, despues another, I bought some handles and incorporated them into my designs. Hize a shawl for his mama, and two scarves for his papa. Then a coat for me, and a blanket for mi hijo, a coat for his mama(pictured above). A dress for mi hija, ahora I joined an exchange.
Y me convenci a mi misma que si puedo. I did it. I finished something. And not just anything. I've made things that have people talking. They love my work. La familia de mi espozo actually talked to me instead of down to me. They appreciate me now. And all it took was me appreciating myself first. Now, I want to make or embellish everything! Now I know that I can be creative porque sabes I don't even use patterns. I work as I go and if I make a mistake I frog it.
Crocheting is relaxing and therapeutic. I tried learning to sew. Pero la tela ya esta hecha. Having the cloth or fabric already made takes the fun out of making the garmet. We live in a warm climate and so yarn is not very logical for clothing. Entonces, I use thread. Making a mistake gives me that much more time with my "therapist." And so I don't mind. It keeps me sane, literalmente.
I love making things. Everything. Absolutamente todo. Which is probably why I have two kids LOL. I can. She was wrong. Si puedo porque ya lo pude. Otherwise, why would Papa Dios have made me. El no se equivoca. He would never have made a mistake. God doesn't belive in frogging.